vian's 17th birthday

thanks for all the wishes,presents,roses,cakes.
exp to ppl i did't even actually expected.
all the surprises and stuff,ha.
love them lots!
and i'm really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really touch by wad u ppl hav done.

frm my special someone*him,thanks for the company.
and those hours we spent together,rather short but sweet.
the stars,the breeze..really really beautiful.=)
exp the quarrel ya.. ha.

not forgettin my besties for sucha unforgettable bdae=)


haha and the top3 award goes too...*drum roll...
first.. chocolates,sk jewellery.

second.. roses,metoyoubear,sk jewellery

third.. idog not the hi5 ..ha


and famous vian's present ish..
flowers
me to you bear
sk jewellery
chocolates
frangrances
suprisinly cakes isn't famous tis year ha onli received 1...

lastly THANKS.
you people really make me smile.

7:58 PMsecret`told

shopping day
shoppin day again ha!
went to town den bugis with diana.
i bought 2 guess bags and some tops=) was tinkin if i shld get the bonia wallet? hmm..
hmm after which wen to visit shellen in hospital.
some infection thingie,well get well soon.
den as usual with jon,jere,and xt..
den home sweet home.=)

waitin for a dream come true..like a cinderella, that one day where my prince charming would come in my rescue.

12:18 PMsecret`told

kellyclarkson//addicted.

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time.

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

It's like I can't breathe

It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

10:59 PMsecret`told

how girls gossip frm the back ha!

9:59 PMsecret`told

shoppin shoPPIN SHOPPIN

after tht freakin borin lit lesson,
guess wad as usual shoppin time..ha
i bought a guy laroche bag and some tops..but i still wan my guess bag.
bought some for bro too.
and guess how much i spend again..
a few hundreds..arRrrRr!!
and tis is not even the startin of spore sales.
ha how m i goin to survive if i carry on lyk tht.

and i'm freakinly pissed yesterdae..
ther's a limit to everythi,
don't ever try to cross tht line.

i really wish to spend tis very special day wid you.
woud u grant my wish?

3:10 PMsecret`told

not to be missed.

great spore sales is coming,
an event not to miss girls ha!
26thmay to 23july
and my shoppin list goes lyk tis..

• guess bags
• guess sunglass
• fragrances
• adidas jackets
• siletto heels
• bed linin
• cosmetics
• wallet

after which my wallet shld hav a hole.ha =)

2:44 PMsecret`told

i miss the way u talk to me and tellin me things gonna be alright.
i miss the way u look at me and sayin u'll call me tonight.
i miss the way u say "i love you"and i stood ther in shockness.
i miss the fact that u still love me even if i woud'nt talk.
i miss your arm ard me knowin tht we were together.
i miss how i wld always write,"vian love *."
i miss how i wld give u a hug and how u wld hug me back.
i miss being able 2 say, "i'll miss you".
i miss thinkin u'll always be ther,and i'll always be in your arms.
i miss how the way u wld make me luff wen i'm angry.
i miss those time wen u wld picked me up frm wrk.
i miss the way u wld look at me with a smile
i miss havin a reason,to wake up each morning.
i miss having a reason,to go to sleep at night.




i miss being with you
without u i'm incomplete.

3:33 PMsecret`told

i'm gonna be a busy BUSY girl

cab cabbin cab..
it seems to be part and parcel of my life alreadi.
just a routine can't stop.
after sch,
just wave ur hand abit and u can get home in a split sec.

just finished my CL paper 1 todae..
and ther r more to come..
exam week.=(

gonna be a real busy girl soon,
doubt i'll be seen online tht often animore.
and excuse me if i ignore u ppl calls or msgs =X

15thmay to 19thmay exam week
20thmay lit course
29thmay o's chinese
30thmay my bdae
30thmay to 5thjune extra lesson
1stjune to 4thjune wrkin for it show

If i were the only girl in the world
And you were the only boy
Nothing else would matter in the world today
We could go on loving in the same sweet way
A garden of eden,just made for two
With nothing to change our joy.

12:59 PMsecret`told

shoppin dae on thurs?
money spended again.
can u imagine i'm out every week at least once,
and 100dollar or even up to 200 will be spended every week.
just can't help it wen i spotted somethi ... hmm..
i'll just get it for sure.

well..
didnt end up in zoo last night,
due to the rain..
we ended up catchin a movie"poseidon"
nice show=)
after which..
dinner at east coast again=)
ha*stingray..

and can you feel the love tonight, it is where we are
it's enough for this wide-eyed wanderer,that we got this far...

4:48 PMsecret`told

my`sweetie pie

i don noe who will be ther wen i'm down,
but i sure tis girl will.
usin her small little hand wippin away my tears.
saying"darnin don cry"

and it nv fails wen i stepp into grannie house..
she will run towards me with a hug..
nah nah nah
not because she misses me but misses my candies.
and she will sae."darnin wher's my sweet"*luffs.

once upon a time i was falling in love, but now i'm only falling apart.

3:48 PMsecret`told

i've been a naughty girl lately.

i ran away frm sch todae.
well know those cartoon?
wher ther's small angel and devil at each side of ur ear?
the devil seems to be tokin to me.
"vian u r tired,time to go home "
ha and i did,as expected.

and guess wad ther's art exam tml.
wen 5pgs of prep wrk r suppose to be prepared,
as i sae being a naughty girl lately..
ha i decided to walk in empty handed.=X

Where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which I find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, and falling in at night. I miss you like hell.

6:55 PMsecret`told

as usual,why m i online at tis time..
ha the ans ish pretti obvious.
and why?cause i don feel lyk it.

life's borin..
i seems to be just so flooded with wrk,
and i'm simply just not movin.
my mid-year next mon?
and wad now? i can be goin to the zoo on fri.
how fcuk tub can i get.
knowin ther r stuff to be done..but just freakinly cannot be bother at all.
and i noe if i'm still goin at tis rate i doubt i can make it for o's.
well i'm just so distracted.

arrrhh..and..
fats r freakin accumulatin in my body.
wen u tink u r fat NO YOU ARE NOT!!!.
but wen u feel tht u r fat,well tht shows the diff alrights.
cause YES YOU ARE FAT!!!.
ish time for a DIET**

PeterPan:You know that place between sleep and awake, the place where you can still remember dreaming? That's where I'll always love you.

Tinkerbell: That's where I'll be waiting."

11:10 AMsecret`told

Five things that scares you
-creepy crawlies(cockroaches!)
-ghost?
-
-
-

Five things that you like most
-my sketch bk
-photo album
-my guess bag!
-smelly pillow
-photoshop pictorial

Five random facts about you
-sleepin beauty ha!
-attitude queen
-domineering
-demandin
-fcuk tub

Five favourite colours
-black
-white
-pink
-brown
-silver

Five favourite food
-fish meat beehoon
-sweet stuff
-sting ray
-duck noodle
-porridge

Five favourite drinks
-milk tea
-coconut
-green tea
-coke with salt
-barley

Five favourite presents
-roses
-hand-make stuff
-teddies
-pendants
-black dress

Five things you wish to have
-money
-a house by the beach
-sport car
-more clothes/shoes
-more silver diamond ha =)

Five things that attracts you to opposite sex
-dressin
-x-factor
-heart
-manner
-looks

Five things opposite sex get attracted to you
-x-factor
-dressin?ha
-
-
-

Five phrase/word you say the most
-fcuk u
-har?
-so nice..
-grins*
-luffs*

Five special occasion
-x'mas
-new year
-bdae
-family dae
-

2:34 PMsecret`told

as usual i've not recover frm my backache.
hmph,and it hurts.
did'nt attend sch todae.
suppose to go malaysia with bro,
but ha mom wun allow.tsk.

hmm..
now goin east coast for supper.
yum*stinyray!

a lil conver
ok smiles k
ok i will smile cause you told me too
hmmm so sweet rite?if tht's frm ur love one?=)

9:35 PMsecret`told

backache

i've been sufferin frm backache lately,
and it wakes me up wen i'm deeply asleep.
it hurts wen i'm standin for long hours.
and it just sucks man.
wld someone massage for me? *luffs.
maybe only my darlin baby girl will..
ha,and i'm missin her now.=)

I want you to be there with me,
when the sun rises,.
and to be there holding me,
when it fades again from the day.

8:36 PMsecret`told

Lady: Why do you like me..? Why do you love me?
Man : I can't tell the reason.. but I really like you..
Lady: You can't even tell me the reason... how can you say you like me?How can you say you love me?
Man : I really don't know the reason, but I can prove that I love you.
Lady: Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason. My friend's boyfriendcan tell her why he loves her but not you!
Man : Ok ok!!! Erm... because you are beautiful, because your voice issweet, because you are caring, because you are loving, because you arethoughtful, because of your smile, because of your every movements..

Unfortunately, a few days later, the Lady met with an accident andbecame a vegetable. The Guy then placed a letter by her side, and hereis the content:

Dearest,Because of your sweet voice that I love you...Now can you talk?No! Therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your care and concern that I like you..Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you.
Because ofyour smile, because of your every movements that I love you..Now can you smile? Now can you move?No, therefore I cannot love you
If love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you anymore.
Do love need a reason?No!Therefore, I still love you...And love don't need a reason.

5:42 PMsecret`told

de·mand·ing
dom·i·neer·ing
a·tti·tude·queen
sleep·ing·beau·ty
fam·ily
dar·ling·sweet·heart
cheeky·WL
prin·cess·DIANA
ir·ri·tat·in·MONKEYS
Rascal Flatts - What Hurts the Most
I can take the rain
on the roof of this empty house,
that don't bother me.
I can take a few tears
now and then and just let out.
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while
even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again
i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most,
was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away

ROYAL

sweets·stuffs
li·ttle·pillow
sketch·book
power·puff·girls
bet·ty·boop
mu·sic

MAJESTIC

ma·ssage·CHAIR
lap·top*done
clo·thes*done
o2·atom
power·puff·girls·bed·sheet*done
heels*done