Tim McGraw//Just Be Your Tear

Don't know why he does what he does
Playing lost and found with your love
Trying to confuse you, use you
Girl. he's gonna lose you sure enough

Don't know why he says all those things
ALways shootin' all your dreams
He ought to know better than that
He ought to be watching his back'cause you know you know

Girl I'd love to shine in your eyes
If only for just a moment
You know i'd be satisfied
If i could only touch your cheek
Baby that's all i'd need
To make my life complete

Girl I know I can make you smile
If you knew that i was here
Wishing that i could be your tear

I dont know why he cant find the words
Saying all those things you deserve
Girl if it was me there i swear
You know you wouldn't feel so unsure
About what tomorrow would bring
Don't you know I'd give everything
If i could just hold you like him
If i could be more than just friends'Cause you know you know

Wishing i could just be your tear

if only he told me, what u told me

11:12 AMsecret`told

band concert,28thapril`o6

attended concert with leonard yesterdae.
the best pl concert ever attended,
reali it was a blast.
exp my lil junior=)
ur solo was hHmmMMmMmm haha..

after which met cliff at some cafe..
den leonard wen home to collect his car.
AND we went changi to see transexual.
finally someone wld bring me ther man!
ha but seriously they r pretti ladies.
they r GORGEOUS AND SEXY man.

den headed to east coast to hav supper..
hmm wen roundin and headed home after which.
ard3 and im freakin drained out alreadi.
but overall nice day.=)

10:33 AMsecret`told

he gave me a call yesterdae,
well just lyk ani other conver i'll hav durin night time.
abt a hour of chat or so..
and the conver end lyk tis.

vian:"i'm tired alreadi,get back to u some other day."
him: okies.

and ..
he tot i was troubled as first,but i told him no.
den he sae i've change,no longer use to be who im.
come on u left me for her, wen i needed u the most!
tellin me some dumb excuses and expected me to believe??
truth enuff i was once dumb,i deceived myself to believe ur lies time and again.
but sorry not animore,
well ther's just a limit to everything and don ever try to cross tht line.

m i suppose to be who im lyk in the past?
i'm sorry but NO?
people changes,no one stays the same.
ask me tis question "do i still love u?"
yes.but since u've choosen her,please dont hurt another girl.seriously i dont know wad i really wan from u ..but i know is not right to hold on.maybe we could just rewind back the time and be good frens again.forgetting the fact tht yes we'll once together?how nice could tht be rite?

i wasn't prepared what's ahead,could someone lead me the way?

2:57 PMsecret`told

*he just came to tok to me,
askin me hows life.
well just lyk ani other normal conver,
nothi sorts of special.
maybe feelins reali faded or
im just to numb after all tht had happen to me for the past years.

as wad ppl always tell me,
find someone tht love u more than u love him.
and tht's wher u'll find happiness.
well he used to love me more than i love him.
but now seems to be opp.

well one lesson tht i learn in life.
reali.
people comes and go.=)

bring me the magic beans and lull me into a deep sleep.

9:43 PMsecret`told

alrights i'm pretti touch by ur little action,
it was shockin and least expected.
and `yes it did brings a smile=)
it might not seems visible and so insignificant,
but somehow or rather u did make me notice ur presence now.

"When you're not here something's missing; my smile."

9:34 PMsecret`told

new hp casin again ha!

2:53 PMsecret`told

tellmeabedtime`story,singmealullaby. vian's tired

2:03 PMsecret`told

s u nday,which means i'm goin back to sch again.
alrights.
came across some blogs,
and they reali freak me out.

http://www.colinandkero.blogspot.com/

http://nickynchris.blogspot.com/

http://www.juniorang.blogspot.com/

but 1thing i realli admire them for realli.
their courage,which i don hav.=)

tuition later..
wad a drag.
ohhhh ya not forgettin fridae,
wen i saw jack online.*lol.
he's freakin makin a fool out of himself man.

1:57 PMsecret`told

borin saturday..
lazyin ard my cosy lil bed till 4+?
got up and decided to pack my messy rm.

alrights den headed to sengkang with my dad,
he ask me to accompany him down to pass some document
and hav dinner together.
afterwhich ask diana for a meet up..
and as usual ..headed to sa1..hmm

alrights.
came home and dad's client gave him some brownie.
and it tasted great!yummi man.
and me and bro was snatchin over it.ha!

2:25 AMsecret`told

so as to not sleep durin math period,

i drew all tis crap to keep me awake lol..

and even goin up to the extend,drawin on my hp.*lol.

marker drawin on hp & pencil drawin on my table.

11:04 PMsecret`told

conversation between my math teacher and i.

she:stop ther u.okies diana u go to the washroom..u!! goin to the washroom durin my lesson? and sleepin after u got back?
me:har?
she:u've been sleepin durin my lesson for mths alreadi!r u interested in math at all?
me:ya.
she:den why u sleepin in my lesson always,ish tht how u learn?
me:no.
she:den?do u sleep in another teachers lesson lyk tht too..
me:no
she:oh so u mean u only do tht durin my lesson?
me:i stared at her?
she:stop givin tis kinda of face and watch ur attitude.
me:wad?
she:watch ur attitude,u'r tokin to a teacher.sleepin beauty in the class? forever sleepin.u better stop sleepin in class one more time u gonna sleep, u'll stand thru out my lesson.
me:wadever and i walked awae.agh.

irritatin sia..sleep in class but at least i passed my math,and i wun fail my mid-year.so shuut alrights.ur lesson r just plainly borin and i don deny the fact tht i sleep thru out the mths,is nort tht i wan too,i did struggle to listen but..haha ya.zZzzZzz

7:45 PMsecret`told

Words without action,meaningless

sch's alrites todae..
well my princess did'nt came sch todae.
and obviously sch's pretti quiet without her.
cause she's usualli veri noisy*grins.

and..

i just realised,i'm spendin money at an alarmin rate.
and ish mostly on cab fare,
how spoilt,takin cab everydae frm sch..
and it certainli cause a BOMB man.
and tis ish wad i tell myself everydae."vian u gotta stop tis."
BUT haha it just repeats everydae without fail.

7:37 PMsecret`told

Are promises make, meant to be broken?
i hate it wen ppl break their promises,
and wad more breakin promises without explaination.
it just irritates alrights.

11:06 PMsecret`told

call me a bitch,slut,meano,freak..
wadsoever ya...
but it just so sO SO irritatin.
can u beileve it.
tis fren of my can actuali msg me everydae without fail,upteen times
askin me same old question,
and mind u i don reply a single msg of his...
but tis can just carry on..
gosh nor .. for mths alreadi?
mths not replyin and he can just continue..
sometimes even phone calls..
NIGHTMARE man.
but one thing we can reali reali learn frm him..
he reali hav patience.

12:24 PMsecret`told

`leaveMEalonealrights.

i don noe wad's with me,
i'm bein throwin my temper every now and den..
for no fcukin reason..
alrights,maybe i'm a lil stressed up by my studies(art?chineseO's?),or discomfort of tht irritatin runnin tap(flu)
or maybe all tis r just excuses.

and..
seems lyk i'm hatin sch,
super duper fuper guper reluctant to attend.BLUES everydae sorts?

just veri tired,tired of everythi ard me..always wearin a mask,puttin a fake smile on my face tht's tirin,nothi ish goin rite at all.
worse to worse,i'm not even lil excited of my upcomin b'dae.
wen i used to be in the past.
gettin ALL SO EXCITED!!!but now ish lyk..
come on i can't be bother.
maybe a nice dinner with my bestie will do.
obviousli not forgettin my princess diana* and wl*=)

sometimes i just wonder,wad's the xfactor tht leads life on?

8:07 PMsecret`told

went to princess diana's house.
did our art..
and for tht freakin 5hours i onlie drew 1sketch..
den wen to plaza,bought tis weddin magazine..
and we r lyk totally obes it.
alrights den wen to meet jon.

1:03 AMsecret`told

as usual i'm out with my princess.
alrights headed to bugis,
and i spotted another guess bag ha!
almost got it BUT as usual..
SHE stops me.."vian u got alot of bags alreadi,not nice nah tis one"

den the phone rang**
mettin jack,robin and lewis for dinner
jack reached alreadi was hurryin us..
we wasn't told wher dinner was held at..
alrights and guess wher's dinner at?
at freakin s e n t o s a??

but not tht bad thou..
the ambiance was nice,
everythi was nice..the sunset exp.
just tht the ppl wasn't right HA!
just so nice if u r onli with the person u love=P
and dream on vian*luffs.

den jack send us to jurong,
cause we'r gettin some at art stuff and meetin patrick..
but in the end,some how or rather..
we r mean,we did'nt meet him.

den took cab frm juron to my house..
put down my stuffs,change..
and went down to meet monkeys for supper.

3:03 AMsecret`told

please stop match-makin...

as usual i'm sick
did'nt attend sch todae.
hmmm..

2:19 PMsecret`told

vooOOooiiiiiicCccEellleeEesSs arrrr...

i suddenli felt tht i'm nort alone,
and ther r lots of ppl still carin.=)
thanks for the wishes.

alrights..
lot of things happen yesterdae.
but i'm glad ish all over..
alright,ther's alwae hurdles to go thru..
and wen u fall,u actuali become stronger.
best wishes =)

9:09 PMsecret`told

vian's sick.

down with 3fatal one.
fever,sorethroat,flu
just hate tis feelin man,feelin all so numb and useless.
ok i'm just sucha weaklin*luffs.
i doubt i can even hav a stroll downstairs,hmm..
and i..
just can't get anith done but just lazin ard tht cosy bed of my.
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...agh!

3:59 PMsecret`told

caught a movie with wilard..
the flim was somethi hills.
well i forgotten.
but nort bad .. ish veri veri gory!*yucks.

after tht headed to sa1 as usual..
den..slowli.. i'm feelin kinda of sick.
sore throat,flu..
thus headed home.

1:21 AMsecret`told

prettylittle`r e droses//yours`truly.

10:07 PMsecret`told

ha i'm officialli back to sch after a long break.
weekends and 2days self declared=)
tht's my stuff to sch ..all brown..
bag,wallet,pencilcase,ipodcasin,hpcasin and my dictionary.=)

a pretti short + long day..
ha wad m i tokin?
well basicalli onli 3lessons for the whole dae[short]
then attended tis chinna compo class[long]
and haha me and leen drew some lame stuff

and for the whole freakin draggy chinna lesson...
we aren't payin attention at all

..and the teacher was quite pissed.but who cares,we r just bad students.

7:26 PMsecret`told

self delcare for 2days=) oPps.

1:12 PMsecret`told

i'm a match-maker fer a day.
well so nice,seein two bestie in one.=)
the most funni part ish both r askin me h ow.
and..
i seems to be holdin two phone tokin to myself.

alrites nothi much..
ish sundae alreadi.
ish like so so fast..
hmm..mondae bllues..
i don ffeeeell like goin to sch tml!!!!

6:23 PMsecret`told

he went MissingInAction for a moment..
i nv receive his phone call nor sms ..or even see him online.
i was worried,thinkin if somethi had happen to him?
BUT,i did'nt bother to giv him a ring or so?
i just can't bring myself to do it.
cause i know i'm nort at fault tis time.
and nv will i give in again,he has alreadi reach my limits.

But i saw him online yesterdae and todae mrng.
somehow wen i saw him online..
i actuali *smiled,some sorts of relieve..knowin tht he's safe.
nort anger...don ask me why...
but,he did'nt even bother to tok to me.
well tis show alot isn't it.
i don noe if he knew my existence online,
but somehow or rather my six sense told me he did.
u can close your eyes to the things u dun wan to see, but u can't close ur heart to the things u don't want to feel

1:01 PMsecret`told

de·mand·ing
dom·i·neer·ing
a·tti·tude·queen
sleep·ing·beau·ty
fam·ily
dar·ling·sweet·heart
cheeky·WL
prin·cess·DIANA
ir·ri·tat·in·MONKEYS
Rascal Flatts - What Hurts the Most
I can take the rain
on the roof of this empty house,
that don't bother me.
I can take a few tears
now and then and just let out.
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while
even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again
i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most,
was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away

ROYAL

sweets·stuffs
li·ttle·pillow
sketch·book
power·puff·girls
bet·ty·boop
mu·sic

MAJESTIC

ma·ssage·CHAIR
lap·top*done
clo·thes*done
o2·atom
power·puff·girls·bed·sheet*done
heels*done