lonely 2nd day of new year,
mom and dad oversea...

alrites wen to meet diana in the evenin,
chit chat at mac..after awhile she left for jurong.
and me grannie place as usual.
left ther went home..

well then the usual meet up with tht bunch of monkeys durin new year..
tis year much more ppl..
shellen,yumin,jon,jere,lewis,jl,robin,jack.xintian
yae wen jack house to gamble and drink..

well den headed home,
fetch back by mr xintian..
and we somehow lost our way lol..
aniwae thanks =)

10:31 PMsecret`told

how i hope he will know how i feel,but he will nv come across tis.alright,had a chat with him last night.tink tis girl ish treatin him betta.he sounded more carefree now, no longer entangled in the mess he used to be.reluctant to sae tis but i'm happi for you.realli boi maybe i'm just not the one for u and our love was not meant to be.i can't give you happiness but maybe she can.
although she treated u bad in the past but at least she's back changin fer u..u shld reali treasure her.if i'm saeing i'm not jealous i'm liein.but pls don let another girl down.i'm wishin u all the best in wadever u do and i'm sorry if i can't be ther fer u animore as promised.i'm just veri tired of everythin and came into a conclusion of lettin everythi go and nort holdin on to anione animore.a break is reali needed...i wan a meet up, not because i wan my sketch bk back? ish because i hab sumthi to pass u.. and i don wan u to hab it after ur b'dae.but m i suppose to sae cum meet me cause i've sumthi fer u? sounds weird isn't it?seems like u don understand at all..aniwae,i doubt u'll ever see tis cause u don seems to even noe the existence of my blog.but writin all tis down reali make me feel much betta at least i hab a blog to confides in.

i don wish to wear a mask and put a fake smile on my face animore.

5:46 PMsecret`told

i'm tired tired of life.
i need him to tell me tht things gonna be okies.
i need him to tell me he's alwae ther.
i need tht reassuring hug and all tht lovin.

i feel so selfish startin everythi with i,
have i not mention tht i'm insecure too?
i'm frustrated.

baby i need you.

i missed him saying :"ger monday blues leh.."missing missing missing him..

9:36 PMsecret`told

i'm missing..

missing those late night conf with u gurls
missing goin sa1 hangin ard void deck with u guys
missing those time with jiayu/boon/coyl/anne
missing those trainin in band
missing attending concerts
missing workin at manna
missing time tht i used to hab to accompany grannie
missing time tht i used to hab to play with baobei.
missing hangin ard mommi office
missing havin dim sum with uncle
missing my carefree life...
missing
missing
missing
missing
missing
JUST MISSING..

11:22 PMsecret`told

_____I USED TO THINK
_____I HAD THE ANSWERS TO EVERYTHING
_____BUT NOW I KNOW
_____THAT LIFE DOESNT ALWAYS GO MY WAY..

_____FEELS LIKE IM CAUGHT IN THE MIDDLE
_____TTS WHEN I REALISE..

_____IM NOT A GIRL, NOT YET A WOMAN.
_____ALL I NEED IS TIME..
_____A MOMENT THAT IS MINE..
_____WHILE IM IN BETWEEN....

10:28 PMsecret`told

TAKE ME AWAY

2:47 PMsecret`told

was shoppin at parkway..
bought 4tops..2pair of shoes.. =)

feelin much betta i suppose,
just love goin parkway=)
decided ..
i shall just concentrate on studies
and nuthi else.

everything shall get OUT OF MY WAY.
OOUT.
but i need some time..

and i can't deal it,of you tell me you love me but you r walking awae.

10:36 PMsecret`told

can someone just slap me hard on the face,
and ask me to wake up.
i don wish to let you go,
but it seems like i don't have a choice.
why isit tht i'm always the one gettin all tis prob.

come on,
god stop torturing me.
the previous wound ish deep enuff.
isn't it?
why r u alwaes giving me things..
and takin them awae?

relationship?studies?friendship?
ish reali reali driving me krazie.
i'm so sO SO stressed up.
ish ther a pill tht i can take,
tht all tis prob will be gone fer gd???????

or the least can *he not leave and be ther,
i just need him..him and him alone nort anione else.
nobody can replace him..NO ONE!
why izzit tht those ppl tht stay r not the one i love.
instead the ppl i love will just leave me one by one.
come on ish tis wad we call life?

if tht's the case,god take me awae i don wish to live.

9:19 PMsecret`told

life's in a mess big biG bIG BIG mess.//i needa a break.

9:45 PMsecret`told

Rooster - Deep And Meaningless

I, I dont know why i miss you so much
Yeah I, I dont know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

If you call me today
Ill say that Im fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
Its just a lie
You knew what you had

You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I,
I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
ut I'd do it again to relive what we had(Damn thats sad)

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just cant leave behind me

7:45 PMsecret`told

s w e e t dreams just don't last,isn'nt the previous wound deep enuff?stop it,is hurting.//myfragmentation hidden underneath n o t h i n g yetUNSEEN....

2:50 AMsecret`told

one of the most difficult question to ans in life..

what's love???

the basic place to start wld be to ask urself,
do u wans to be with him?
wen you love someone,
u wans to be with tht special someone.
not just be with him,
but share everythi with him.
after a great day at sch,
u wld wans to rush home telling him everythi u've done.
u'll feel excited at the prospect of just being in his company,
just being close to him isn't enough,
u wans to be a part of him, a part of his life.
u can't stand the thought of being away frm him yet,
wen u r,
u still feel tht ever-present bond tht ties u together wherever u go.
u can almost feel wad they r feeling.
u feel like,
with a little bit of effort,
u can see what his seeing and think what he's thinking.
to me tht's love.

11:26 PMsecret`told

the principal in sch ish reali giving me big prob..

was actually not in the mood of going out..
but since coyl asked for dinner,then alrites.

went to tampinese for dinner,
saw risha.. and actualli actualli i tot..
why tis person come tok to me so strange,tink faster walk..
but it actually turn out to be risha lol.=X

ya, headed to bugis walk ard..
ard ard ard.... then went fer mango ice..
left bugis went to parkway..
slack slack..
den headed home.=)

completed your 10tasks before lookin for me.pls

11:35 PMsecret`told

5 favourite places
-parkway
-esplande
-marina bay
-east coast park
-home


5 favourite food
-fish meat bee hoon
-fruits tart
-chocolates
-candies
-maggi mee

5 favourite drinks
-ice milk tea
-coconut
-coke
-barley
-ice mocha

5 favourite colours
-black
-white
-pink
-army green
-grey

5 favourite brands
-billabong
-guess
-zara
-mango
-topshop

5 favourite things
-hp
-ipod
-me2u bears
-camera
-sketch bk

5 favourite cartoon characters
-powerpuff girls
-winnie the pooh
-eyore
-piglet
-baby minnie
-lil twins star

9:26 PMsecret`told

Ben Jelen -Come On

And finally the silence
Looking out,
looking back across the sky
Trying to find a meaning
Knowing that I just left it all behindS
till I smell a lingering softness
Where did she go
How did she go I wanna wanna know
I wanna know that she'll be coming here to me

Come on Without you
I'll never feel the love inside of me
Come on, you know that we belong
Come on, come on, come on, come on
Thinking back before her
I never knew the meaning of alone

Still the flag is feeling foreign
I live the day to escape into a phone
Speaking of a world not real then
Where did she go
How did she go
I wanna wanna knowI
wanna know that she'll be coming here to me

Cause shes sharp for kisses
And my heart misses
She's coming
She's coming here to me
I'm needing
Desiring to kiss her now
I'm living for her
Breathing for her
Singing for her fairytale

Come on..

10:37 PMsecret`told

i was just abt to do an ending,
but things just pop out.
i dreamt abt him yesterdae..
lots of doubt in me actuali.

do i actualli bare to end our story?
actuallii..mmaybe?
do i actualli still love him?
not a definite no?but just i doubt so.
do i still misses him?
not animore?
is he actualli tht important to me animore?
i doubt so?

maybe just ..
the sudden flow of emotions.
seriously
i can't find the traces he left behind.

10:23 PMsecret`told

was down on sat/sun at causeway point,
due to canon demo show.
some lonely soul i tot i gonna be.
BUT..

saw mani familiar ppl..
like dyson promoter,olympus promoter..
and..philips guy..
did'nt even actualli realise he was my bro fren.
until he told me eh..i always go ur house play majong nor.

coyl came down to accompany me for lunch on both dae,
tink he's a nice guy?
NOW tink twice again..
cause he owe me sumthi
and coming down fer lunch on both days
is an exchange.but aniwae thanks =)

alrites alrites sales was gd 15 sets of printers.=)

12:21 AMsecret`told

de·mand·ing
dom·i·neer·ing
a·tti·tude·queen
sleep·ing·beau·ty
fam·ily
dar·ling·sweet·heart
cheeky·WL
prin·cess·DIANA
ir·ri·tat·in·MONKEYS
Rascal Flatts - What Hurts the Most
I can take the rain
on the roof of this empty house,
that don't bother me.
I can take a few tears
now and then and just let out.
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while
even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again
i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most,
was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away

ROYAL

sweets·stuffs
li·ttle·pillow
sketch·book
power·puff·girls
bet·ty·boop
mu·sic

MAJESTIC

ma·ssage·CHAIR
lap·top*done
clo·thes*done
o2·atom
power·puff·girls·bed·sheet*done
heels*done