a single teardrop falls onto the lips
misery & many trials ish wad comes in the way
so much pain i suffered
tht's when i noe wad reali lies ahead...

the time has come for me to go
i never want to feel this low..
spoon me another memory
take my hand, would u?

and...
lead me thru my life
i dun wish to turn back`


vian running awae frm reality

5:06 PMsecret`told

band prat yesterdae super slacking`
den damn funni
heard frm becca they all sae saw amanda&wendy holding hand`
like wad the hell lolz
den me & szehui start to hold hand lolz

toking to becca mindy and sammi..
den nitex time becca nv call back`
den mindy compose a song fer amanda&wendy lolz

song delicated to amanda & wendy ...

i love you
you love me
i'm amanda and u r wendy
we r pure les of pl concert band
wouldn't you let me hold ur hand..

by the great`mindy

den mindy damn funni whole conver yesterdae...
saeing attai tai tai`` attai tai tai`` attai tai tai`` attai tai tai``..lolz
den mindy wanna zZzZzz so put down early .
sammi and me tok till 3++
bat low den put down`
yupx..


I’m in search of a word that doesn’t exist...

6:09 PMsecret`told

2dae lesson..
sleeping as usual..*grinx*
den art lesson..
hab unusual encounter *becca*
tht ong nv come wan us to passed up 6layout by 2dae ??
impossible```

den hab band prat``
thinking nort to attend``
onGk band prat 2dae was like
OOooOOoOOoOoo so fun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!``
whAhAHhaHAhAHHAha...
finally we played as a band once again after a long period of sectional....

the heads all stand & tok to us?
asking us to persist on despite of the obstacles we'r facing``
as we will work hard 2gether as a band``
and maybe we're habing an Emmanuel Concert``
quoted frm christobelle :miracle may happened``


"single but nort availble"

9:53 PMsecret`told

no price to pay,

no strings attached

no care in the world,

not even the bottle of pills could kill the pain ,

it hurts

it reali hurts..

hidden by the shades

with the pain in my heart

and tears in my eyes...

vian in sorrow

2:38 PMsecret`told

i'm not a fighter
i'm not a survivor
fear lives for the moment
when i enter the band room..

the walls begin to close in
and it appears people are against me,
too much to hold within
as things dun appear right as they suppose to be

paranoia settles in,
hearing noises that are not,
closed in, in my room that's a bin,
that in my room I'd rather be shot dead``


vian plays like she never plays before...

7:47 PMsecret`told

section outing 2dae``
wow the juniors ar``
violence sia``
take the pail fetch sea water and started pouring``
inside contain sand make me so super sandy``
nvm still wanna push me to the sea``
they super hyper seh``

den ..
eve and lena came my house luff like wad like tht they all..
krazie juniors``
den lena wan to bring my winnie bear and powerpuff gurl home!! *NONO*
hMmMmM.. tht all..
super tired seh now`` tink gonna sleep soon..zZzZZzzzZzZzzz


lurve has no rulez

8:51 PMsecret`told

onGk blog abt yesterdae``
when sentosa ..
was fun overall..

at the beach the whole afternoon
tanning`..etc..
den after tht we when 2 sit the monorail``
one whole big round den... when to sit``
cable car`` whAhHAhahha damn funni sia..
amanda and pau was like screaming awae``
scaed` sCARED` SCARED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!haha
damn damn funni`

den shop around there den home sweet home`
online bathe``
den i sleep like a piggy```*grinx*
tired``
hab great memory..


what isn't remembered never happened...memory ish merely a record , you juz need to rewrite that record

1:03 PMsecret`told

hMmMmMm..
overall result was fine`
passed overall..

sat band prat`
was alrite?
during section jojolala compose
the 2nd alto piece for braveheart the solo part..
den after tht band prat played bravada espirt...
i was so sO sOO sOOO damn scared!!!!*=PpP*

kK.. den after tht when out wif pau?
shop fer clothes..
bought quite a number`` *grinx*

kK tm| going sentosa..
fer tanning``
shall end here *grinx*


reality became brighter, new hopes are alive...

7:01 PMsecret`told

2dae sux man!!! *agh*
4get 2 bring PE shirt``
den kanna by tht stupid vanitha ..

den art lesson...
me.becca was comparing other ppl sketches wif ours...
den realise she grade others damn high
den she grade ours like bloody low la
and ish nort tht we nv put in effort..
and also nort sae our art sux..
wad the hell...
she grade us damn low la...
me.becca.pau.leen.winnie.amanda..etc..
den was outside art room
jojolala ask how i score?
den i like shouting out loud ..!!
tht stupid women grade us so low lor!!!
den tht ong walk passed``
dun noe if she heard?

den take back chem wOw~
result also like shit sia failed like wad~~
watever seh!
unlucky bad dae...

den 2dae whole dae kanna paster by some freako~
aGh even more irritated`````


"My heart goes up in flames and I douse it with teardrops."

10:12 PMsecret`told

bio lesson...
stupid lena koh`
she ish sick in her brain la watever lor
like bio file worth 5marks fer ca ...
den typically the whole klass nv hand up..
den she somemore dun let us hand in after sch she ish sick in her brain!!
den PE run 5rounds` (-.-")

band prat``
sectional....
prat.gossip....
and i |urve the bravada espirt!!
keke so nice``

kk ya wanna ZzZZz now kinda of tired....


Moment of uncertainty ,insecurity's overwhelming...words of goodbye are spoken

9:14 PMsecret`told

band prat 2dae...
me & pau sort of quarrel..
hab some disagreement den we argue..
both of us get beri turned off by each other
black face`watsoever`

eve&lena know their G.C.D.F major scale
jasmine know onli G.C major scale..
den shimun onli noe 3scale i also dun noe wad she noe(-.-")
tht include all their basic tonguing slur etc...

and i pass my math quiz!!! whAhHAHAHA
ish like i hab no idea wad ish the quiz about lor ...
and i pass!!!!! whAHHAhA!! pAss!!
chong chong get full mark!! whAhHAha *griNX*



"The world will always be cruel, but it never seems that way unless you face it alone."

10:42 PMsecret`told

update on sat?
k .. after sportmeet.. when to town..
town bored seh nuthi to shop..
bought clothes den when down to sentosa..
to see vs perform..

after performance when 2 eat dinner wif sir`
pau.huiwen.celeste.me.lena..
den after tht sir send us home 1 by 1
reach home.. bath..den ZzZZzZzz st8

sundae? whole dae slacking at home??

k and 2dae?
suppose 2 go out but in the end..
cause raining.. den ZzZzzZzz till i late...
so nv go whhHAHAhaha


"Every moment without you, is a moment of time lost."

2:22 PMsecret`told

i'm seperated ..
frm becca and ah pau...
the daes of fun & luffter we use to hab ish gone!!
and gone 4ever!!!!! agh sob
we r at diff direction lor like north south east west!
wad the hell...tht stupid hohOhO!! aGh!!! *wateVEr*

after lesson when fer violin den hear tht dumbdumb nag again...
take it as she singing dOrEmifAsOlatidO~~~*grinX*
den she go complain tht we nv did her work to tht loh
den we gort screw up by her again~ anOther one singing~
watever...

after violin lesson was wif ah pau and kapui toking.on.and.on.and.on...
in canteen when home abt 6.35++?
den tml sport dae after tht going out wif ahpau.pat and etc...
yUpx..
haha and Qi help me wif my shoe thaNx gUr| *grinZ*

pauline: all the best fer tml yea? u kan do it all the wae man..i'm waiting to see ur trophy!! *griNX*


"The few hours I spend with you are worth the thousand hours I spend without you!"

8:12 PMsecret`told

all fathers sux
he when to take my hp and check kan
and started to call ppl like his own frenx!
wad the fuck lor!
yesterdae nitex dun noe how mani ppl he call kan!
plx lor i need privacy!
and stop interfering my life!
i wan a life of my own without u in the picture!!!!
so jux fuck off~and just get out of my wae!!

take my hp last nitex when i was toking on the phone!
fine la take all u wan !
i dun expect u to check my msg and prank call my frenx lor
u r interfering to much into my private life~
u r driving me krazie if u continue doing this..
dun blame me fer wad i will become if u continue!!!~ u sUx!

nv attend sch 2dae cause woke up late
n ish all because of u!
u took my hp and no one woke me up!
i nv attend sch cause of u ?
u tink ish fun den go ahead |a!~
i hate u!!!
u r driving me up the wall !!!! and getting on my NERVE!!!!!!
i'm going krAZie , u sux!!!!!


break the ru|es and find ur freedom...

2:13 PMsecret`told

lesson 2dae song seh!
5period free tht koh and ho nv come!
den hab free show
frm tht insane person sitting next 2 me! *yuenmei*
she dance pole dance den she started stripping~
as in reali stripping! walaox! turn off seh!

den art tht ong sae hab to finish 10 chinatown sketch by tml..
a2 size one~ nv hand in den ZERO!
walaox den i hab 4 more? leen hab 3more?
becca hab 6more? ah pau onli hab 2more? aiYox!
die kan... how to finish lor... and i'm damn tired now as in damn!

den band prat running ..
den ms yeo time~
den saw dodsworth gurls dancing...wOoOo chiO seh
they reali kan shake~
den home sweet home...


I'm visualizin my name tattooed....

7:33 PMsecret`told

I've been driving for an hour
Just talking to the rain
Said I've been driving crazy
Cause its keeping you away
So just give me one good reason
Tell me why I should stay
Cause I dont wanna waste another moment
Saying things we were never meant to say

And I
Take it just a little bit
I..
Hold my breath and count to ten
I..
I've been waiting for a chance to let you in

If I just breathe
How do you fill the space in between?
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe
Everything little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe

Well it's ours, so overrated
Not saying how you feel
So you end up watching chances fade

And wonder in which way

And I...
Give you just a little time
I...
Wonder if you realize
I...
I've been waiting till I see it in your eyes

If I just breathe
How do you fill the space between
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright
If I just breathe
Breathe

So I whisper and I'm,
Hoping you hear me
Do you hear me?

If I just breathe
How do you fill the space between
Oh no, everything is alright
Breathe,
Every little piece of me
You'll see
Everything is alright

9:02 PMsecret`told

de·mand·ing
dom·i·neer·ing
a·tti·tude·queen
sleep·ing·beau·ty
fam·ily
dar·ling·sweet·heart
cheeky·WL
prin·cess·DIANA
ir·ri·tat·in·MONKEYS
Rascal Flatts - What Hurts the Most
I can take the rain
on the roof of this empty house,
that don't bother me.
I can take a few tears
now and then and just let out.
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while
even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again
i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most,
was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away

ROYAL

sweets·stuffs
li·ttle·pillow
sketch·book
power·puff·girls
bet·ty·boop
mu·sic

MAJESTIC

ma·ssage·CHAIR
lap·top*done
clo·thes*done
o2·atom
power·puff·girls·bed·sheet*done
heels*done