last post : must see *tan* again!! kan die arh!!
nv see his car again
nv see his face again
he ish gone 4ever
gone fer some persona| reason...
|ena and sammi cry |ike.. someone jux die?
josephine was |ike damn sad..
but... i'm g|ad |ol
no one wi|| ever scream and shout
like he does alwaes !!
maybe the next conductor..
but hope nort *praying*
hmMmMm..
the band gotta settle down..
time fer independant!

"Starlight, star bright, first star I see tonight. When I look into your eyes, it can't be wrong if it feels this right. If I could only make you mine, make me leave my past behind. If only wishes could come true, I'd have you."
-viAn.gOne-

11:49 PMsecret`told

yesterdae nitex was watching this show abt dreams
how they predict dreams sae till damn scary kan!
den suddenly saw some green light in my room
green light coming frm my hand!
and it's a phone call frm recoyl LoL
i drop the phone cause tot wad LoL
den after tht tok to jolene...
den was bored so beg bro to let me use the com
toking to cindy lewis lincoln+justin jolene
online till morning 5++

and i kannot sleep so when bugis st8 at 10...
bought new bag,metal pencil box and clothes
met leen at 11.. i was late as usual..
den leen when to meet candy bought lunch fer her etc..
me extra wor~ they so loving haha den me there *light.bulb*
but lucky onli fer 45min or maybe less...
walk around lalala
den when to hawker jon working there..
jere came after tht ...wif her stead bah? *best.wishEs*
den eat at hawker ate plainly dark meat yummy~
den when walking around
den was tired so sit at the water fountain there...
see how the kids play
reminds me of my childhood LoL

den after tht simply kannot take it le
nv sleep fer whole dae
so me request to go home to ZzZzZz
came home bath.. den zZzzZz till 9
saw missed call one of them frm pauline
ask me go tm.. cause she at tm..
haha kraZie gurl.. tml band prat..
must see *tan* again!! kan die arh!!

"Don't question if you're in love, let love tell you ... ."

-viAn.tirEd-

3:12 PMsecret`told

shall update now...
sheesh..
was on the phone till 6am ++ in the morning
den as usual slept too erm abt... 4++
den online watch tv , on com etc..
till now waHAhHAhA

lincoln : hello
me : yUpx
lincoln : you think i'm very daoz ar?
me : haha lol wu gib me secreat out justin huh?
lincoln : haha yar sorrie ar juz shy

he apologize to me lol ... hMmmMmm cause i think he dao?
oOoOo 1st time i see guy like tht wor~ lol
sae sorri cause for no reason.. nice guy.. hMmMm shEesh.. gurls shld go fer him

den me+boon eng+cindy toking abt helen haha
tht bitch!
i hate her to the CORE and to the MAX aldready

boon eng : j0in m0i and cindy... l0lss.. t0k abt that bitch?
me : where. msn?
boon eng : yA!!
me : tok abt ah lian pai i scared leh she scolded me how ..?? LoL
cindy :tHaN u tRANsFoRM tO kItTY cAN lE mAH ...tHAN asK uR dANiEL
me : lol

haha we r nuts man ...
tml activities will be at bugis whAhHahA
going out wif leen chong chong..
buy stuff like bag pencil box etc..
prepare fer sch reopen..

I've been searching for that someone, to show me the way, to take my hand and tell me that everything will be okay; I've been searching for that someone... and still searching...

-viAn.eNdEd-

3:43 PMsecret`told

thaNx fer ur x'mas present...

diana --> pOwErpuFf.gUrLs.piLLow
pau|ine --> bOwL.fiLLed.wiF.swEetS
geraldine --> winE.cUp.fiLLed.wiF.swEeTs
gillian --> pOwErpUfF.gUrLs.cOin.bOx.fiLLed.wiF.hErshEy.chOcoLatE
mindy --> hEartshaPE.tEdDYbEar.wiF.wOrDs
josephine --> LeTta.V
sammi --> rEaL.fLowEr
terence --> chOcLatE
kor --> pAir.Of.fLufFy.nitEx.sLippEr
xiang --> bOx.Of.chOclatE.wiF.tEddY.bEar
mommi --> paiR.Of.diAmOnd.eaRrinG
1st aunt --> bOx.Of.chOcLatE
3rd aunt --> bOx.Of.chOcLatE
he* --> tEe-shiRt
robin --> jAr.Of.swEeT
lex --> bOx.Of.chOcLatE.wiF.nEckLacE
baobeix --> chOcLatE

hab fun on x'mas and x'mas eve..
and so sorri fer nort replying everyone tht send greeting on x'mas eve nitex~
haha cause i dun see the point in rep|ying... ;p
now the next big event coming up ish sch reopen~
haix needa shop fer sch bag and pencil case
hMmMmMm....

Last Christmas
I gave you my heart
But the very next day you gave it away
This year
To save me from tears
I'll give it to someone special x2 ...

A face on a lover with a fire in his heart
A man under cover buy you tore him apart
Now I've found a real love you'll never fool me again

-viAn.hatEs.hOmEwOrk-

3:53 PMsecret`told

k 2 more daes to x'mas eve
gonna hab krazie partie
wOOoooo
vian *excited* |ol
buy a|| present a|dready
except ji||ian one
going to parkwae tm| again to shop!~
wif boon eng
wOOoO x'mas~ whahHAHaA
josephine.mindy.sammi.terence.geraldine.pauline.gillian.celeste.me
haha habing fun 2gether as one
present.sweets.chocolate.cookies.cakes.lollipop
haha~ yummy!~
i'm krazie

kannot get u out of my mind~
i rea|i can't
If you are going to make me cry,
at least be there to wipe the tears ...

dear santa,
i wish this x'mas fer my prince charming to appear...

-vian.excited-

3:01 PMsecret`told

wake up at 11when 2 grandma house
ate breakfast p|ay wif baObEix etc there...
after tht when home
as usua| i s|ept again
actua||y suppose to go parkwae wif boon eng
but... both of us |ack of s|eep
so we decided 2 stay at home and zZzZzzZz
s|eep ti|| 5++ usua| me on com.tv..etC
den gera|dine and pau|ine came over
p|ayed.tok.hab.fun.and they went home at 11? abt there
needa get abt 7 present fer x'mas eve..
gEra|dinE.pau|inE.jOsEphinE.tErEncE.gi||iaN.ce|eStE.saMmi
hMmM... shopping time~
whAhAhAhaaaaA
x'mas eve coming a|so meaning sch reopening soon
and i hab tons and dozen of hw nort done yet i haben even |ike touch it ~
haix
aniwae nort a bad dae fer me 2dae
but ish on|i u~
tota||y disappointed wif u

u hurt me tota||y
i hate tht fee|ing
but i'm...infatuated with you
i want the fee|ings to end
my heart ish crying
after wad u hab done?
didn't u sae u wi|| be there when i need you?
but .. a|| u do ish ignore and saeing sorri
tht's nort wad i wan~
i dun wan the word "sorri" if u did'nt mean it
a picture of u and me in my dreams
wi|| end soon...
i'm tired , i needa a break
i dun wish 2 wait animore...

"YOU" : u hurt me deep|y ... i waited fer u , and gib up so mani chances... does a|| this worth it? ish a|| because of u tht's why i'm nort att fer 8mth.. cause i |ove u deep|y.. but how abt u? i rea|i hab no idea at a||.. m i stupid or sumthi? think ish the time we come to and end` ...

-viAn.hEartbrOkEn-

3:21 PMsecret`told

wake up at 3++ 2dae
after tht wash up went hosipita| to see grandma
she |ook different
tired.i||.o|d
her voice change too
nort the usua| her
a|waes habing a sweet smi|e on her face
tht face i usua||y see was no |onger there at a||
seeing her make my heart break
rea|i break
pray tht she wi|| get we|| soon
back to her norma| se|f..
after hosipita| went 2 parkwae to get some stuff~...
yesterdae "HE" was on|ine
tok to him~
we both hab some "HINT" here and there |ol
damn stupid |a i think
jere and |ewis was a|so on|ine at abt 2++ am
|ewis sti|| the norma| se|f |a but jere |eh...
haha ... think he abit "SOD" |e..

"If you have to say you love me, it's because I need to know. If you want to say you love me, it's because you want me to know. But, saying that you love me is simply because you do. I love you, too!"

-viAn.sp|it-

3:53 PMsecret`told

wet wet and damn wet
hab fun at the seaside
was p|aying eag|e and chick game
den proceed to 2pair etc..
haha scream and shout |ike nobody business
and guess wad... my voice break whAhHAHA
after games went back to bbq pit
eat and eat
den went to some secreat p|ace wif jo|ene
on|i me and u noe haha~~
shhhhhHhHhhh
den games time again
run .. run and ....i fe|| and i'm wet
k this sux sux tota||y
worse part of the day~
so MARU |or everyone was |ike |ooking
PL.BP.VS
but ish |ike ... haix how i hope i kan change the time back~
nah~ ish over~
this sat going out wif boon eng~
after tht she coming over to my house
haha dun noe wad we going to do |a but tink ish going to be damn fun haha

"I love to dream of me and you, I love to dream of a love so true. I love to dream you really are there, I love to dream that you really do care. I love to dream my heart you'll take, I love to dream my heart won't break... I love to dream but I hate to wake."
-viAn.|OoKinG.4waRd-

3:50 PMsecret`told

discover what candy you are @ quiz me


yesterdae on the phone ti|| 2++
den s|ept |ike a pig
and some pp| msg me at 10++
and disturb me frm my sweetie dream~ haix
haha but never|ess sti|| went back to s|eep
den wake up at 3++
combine section outing tm| at east coast
sh|d i go? oR nort?
.... the ans wi|| be out 2nitex..

Never say you love me if you really don't care.
Never talk about feelings if they aren't really there.
Never hold my hand if you intend to walk away.
Never say you're here for me if you're gone the very next day.
Never look into my eyes if all you do is lie.
Never say forever 'cause forever makes me cry.

-viAn.hEartbrOkEn-

3:22 PMsecret`told

waS tOkinG On thE phOnE ti|| 5++ yEstErdaE
wEnt fEr baNd to dO thE banNeR thinG
sUppOsE tO gO aT ... 12?
i wEnt at 1.30?
wEnt thErE s|acK |ikE fEr 10min
dEn wEnt fEr |UnCh cOuntEd aS mY brEakfaSt
CARROT.CAKE
nv wi|| i touch it again
it make me itch |ike he|| kan
after carrot cake went back to band room
den i waS dAmn itChy sO tOok caB hOmE
sO iSh |ikE cOuntEd aS if i nV gO it wi|| bE thE samE?
rEaCh dOor stEp staRtinG tO sEe thinGs b|ur~
aNd .. i faiNtEd~
at mY dOor stEp
fina| haIX
faintEd ? nV hapPen to mE bEfOrE
i frEak out tota||y
but.. at |eaSt outsidE mY hOusE noRt aNiwhErE iF nort rite...
thinK i wi|| bE in hOsPita| noW~ |ol

"For my eyes have been mistaken, for this to be true, an Angel so low, an Angel so bright, for it's as if God himself, has stolen two stars from the night sky, And hid them within your eyes, so one day you shall see, the beauty within, the Angel I see, but above all, you have became, the Angel of my heart..."

-viAn.sti||.|Ub.u.dEep|y-

3:00 PMsecret`told

|ong time no b|og |e wor~
sch starting soon
tm| hab band prat which ish the |ast band prat fer the month
hab combine sectiona| outing next thur "18dec"
thinking sh|d i attend?
my section |ike no pp| go wor~
den somemore |ike so mani section ?
hMmmMm....
|ol ish either i attend or finished up my ho|idae hw
think tham |ag wor~
pp| finish hw |e .. i haben even started~ |ol

"Up in the skies, I look very carefully to see your face. I wonder if you're there, I wonder if tonight you're thinking of me. I just want to tell you that looking at the stars makes me think of you. By looking at it I just want to be where you are, and hold you tight and never let go!!"
-viAn.eNdEd-

3:59 PMsecret`told

yesterdae was on the phone ti|| morning ~
power yeA?
and some "human" out there was suppose too ca|| ... but in the fe|| as|eep |e wor~
|oL... nvm u'|| be 4givEn but u owE me 1~

yea suppose to hab section outing tm| wif combination of vS.biShaN.paRk..
but... dun noe if isH sti|| on?
dotx wor~

"Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you only have one life to live and one chance to do all the things you want to do."

-viAn.eNdEd-

6:16 PMsecret`told

sha|| began a new chapter in my |ife next year
tota||y new
nuthi but on|i studies and studies
to achieve the best resu|t .

yesterdae hab ended the |ast moment wif vs.and.bishan-park
mani things happen after the concert~ [fEr.mY.sEctiOn]
sadness.confusion.hapiness.|aughter.etc

"I dream of you when I'm asleep, you even appear when I'm awake daydreaming. There is no escaping you. I just wish it was true."
-viAn.eNdEd-

3:47 PMsecret`told

in tears..
my worst day of a||
just dun mention 05december 7.15 to me
tht stupid sickening fucking sa|oon~
2dae was the most fuck tub dae man
nv nv |et me see tht stupid woman again!
she sux!`
spend $28 on tht stupid hair cut tht i find it sucky
den me and jo|ene was te||ing her cut a diff way
den she was |ike sure i charge u doub|e which ish $56
i mean it was |ike wad the fuck |or
ya watever SHE SUX
|ook |ike some inncocent freak tht a|ways study it rea|i sux!!~
watEver |a tm| hAb baNd cOncErt...
thinKinG if i sh|d attEnd..

-viAn.eNdEd.wiF.tEars-

2:26 PMsecret`told

hab exchange 2dae
somebody |a... a|waes picking on me...
orange shoe... dun noe wad..etc....
think overa|| was fun
but i'm dead beat
as in rea| tired
as |ike i'm going 2 |ose my ba|ance the next min..|ol
......... tired.......dead-beat.......ahhhhhh....
haha i'm in |ove man
in |ove wif tht bird f|ying hands conductor
|ol... he praise sax section ... ish been a |ong time since this happen...

-viaN.eNdEd-

3:40 PMsecret`told

went back 2 grandma house 2dae
p|ayed wif baObEix
think she put on weight sia~
kannot carry her fer |ong~~ if nort next dae confirm hand pain~
spend great afternoon wif her~|ol
tm| going to meet pau|ine after her h.band prat
bet too see |otas of senior~
sha|a|a.. bOred~
think tm| wou|d be fun~~

-viAn.saY.|adEdaH-

3:34 PMsecret`told

another s|eeping dae...
sooner or |ater i can master everything about s|eeping
s|eeping hours
s|eeping position
s|eeping sty|e
quite coo| rite |ol
haha cannot continue s|eeping |ike tht |e sia..
tm| sha|| go grandma house and p|ay wif baobEix
haha... bring her out to p|ay
it hab been years since i hab ever done tht |a
mish her..wor~ keke
the kute sweet |i| gur|
haha my cutie sweetie pie~
justin and terence~~
so keen to noe hannah~~
haha
justin : put hannah in band a |a
jo|ene: sha|| put her in band b
: sha|| put pei|ing in band A instead
haha damn funni |a
pENGx...typica||y guys...

-viAn.eNdEd.wiF.|aughtEr-

3:36 PMsecret`told

de·mand·ing
dom·i·neer·ing
a·tti·tude·queen
sleep·ing·beau·ty
fam·ily
dar·ling·sweet·heart
cheeky·WL
prin·cess·DIANA
ir·ri·tat·in·MONKEYS
Rascal Flatts - What Hurts the Most
I can take the rain
on the roof of this empty house,
that don't bother me.
I can take a few tears
now and then and just let out.
I'm not afraid to cry
Every once in a while
even though goin on with you gone still upsets me
There are days
Every now and again
i pretend i'm okay but that's not what gets me

What hurts the most,
was being so close
And having so much to say
And watchin you walk away

ROYAL

sweets·stuffs
li·ttle·pillow
sketch·book
power·puff·girls
bet·ty·boop
mu·sic

MAJESTIC

ma·ssage·CHAIR
lap·top*done
clo·thes*done
o2·atom
power·puff·girls·bed·sheet*done
heels*done